October 9th, 2008

11 DPIUI




Maybe I was crazy to think that maybe, just maybe I had a shot at this working the first time. Yesterday, though, I could tell that my boobs weren't at sore as they have been, and my back didn't hurt and I wasn't completely exhausted. So I pretty much convinced myself that I wasn't pregnant and that I wanted to know either way so I could move on. So on my way home from my class, I stopped at CVS and bought a 2 pack of HPTs. I decided to test this morning, and waited until DH was out of the house, so that if it WAS positive, I would have all day to plan something special to tell him. He finally left, thank God, because my bladder was going to explode.I thought to myself- "here goes nothing" as I dipped the stick. I put it on the counter and turned away from it, for about thirty seconds. When I looked back I saw one bright pink line, and that's it. Nothing but white next to it. At that moment I was glad I prepped myself, because I didn't cry- I just thought it figures. It's only been about an hour and a half since I did the test, and my eyes have welled up about half a million times already. I keep yelling at myself (literally) to get over it. It just figures that last night I had a dream that the test was positive and when I woke up I was really disappointed. I was so into it and I truly thought it was real. My sister said it's Murphy's Law or something like that. I hate that Murphy character.I technically wasn't supposed to test until Sunday so I will call the RE on Sunday morning to find out what I have to do next.Back to the drawing board.