October 27th, 2008

What a looong week it has been. I am glad it is over.

My grandfather passed away after much suffering on Monday, October 20th. The arrangements were made, and the wakes were on Thursday evening, Friday afternoon and evening, and the funeral was on Saturday.

The hardest part is seeing the person lying in a casket for the first time. I hadn't seen him since my wedding, so even though I knew what to expect, it still feels like a punch in the stomach. Once the initial shock is over, though, it's easier to talk to relatives and friends, take a stroll down memory lane, look at all of the pictures that are displayed. I DO find it a strange tradition, to just hang out and socialize while there is a dead body lying in the front of the room. I wonder where that came from?
Friday was a long and exhausting day. We were at the funeral home for most of the day, and in between viewings we went to my aunts house to eat. Her house was 20 minutes away from the funeral home, and we only had about 2 hours in between. Lots of rushing around. DH met me at the funeral home for the evening service, because he couldn't miss work during the day. Afterwards we went to the diner and got home about 11.
Saturday was also a difficult day. We had to be back at the funeral home by 8am to say our final goodbyes. It was so sad- especially seeing my dad's face crumple. Then we were off to the church for the mass, and when that was done- we went to the cemetary. They did the final service inside a little chapel, and when the priest was done, everybody went up to the casket and put a single rose on top of it. Everybody cried as they put down their flower- and then it was his wife's turn. She held it together for most of the week, only crying a little occasionally. It was this final moment that she had to say goodbye that she really let go, with all of us there to watch her. She was hugging and kissing the coffin and saying "I love you". It was unbearable to see. I felt so bad for her.
After the final service we went to the Southward Ho Country Club for a luncheon. It was delicious. At around two o'clock, DH and I finally went home to take a nap and clean our apartment so my sister and BIL and their SIL and Brother could come over for a game night, which turned out to be boring and sleepy.
Yesterday was just a relaxing day for me. Hung around all day, watched Desperate Housewives last night.





On a fertility note...

Today is CD 14. I wanted to try to do a natural cycle since I can't do any meds due to the 5 cysts and enlarged ovaries I still have. So I called last week to schedule blood and sono for today to check for any impending ovulation. The nurse wanted to check with Dr. K, and he said not to do a natural cycle. He wanted me to schedule an appointment with him to discuss IVF. So I scheduled that for Monday, November 3rd. If we are approved for the grant that they do- it goes by our 2007 tax returns, and we made practically NOTHING last year- so one cyle of IVF would be pretty cheap for us. If it didn't work the first time, we would have to do a bunch of IUI's because since we made so much more in 2008, the cost of IVF would be alot higher. Insurance covers nothing. So- I guess we shall see what happens. Right now all I can do is wait to get AF.That's all for now.