Waiting sucks.

I just want it to be Monday so I can see my little mashoogina and know that everything is okay for another week. The first trimester is so nerve-wracking, especially since week #8 has a stigma to it, seeing as that's the week I lost my first angel. I just want it to be past that week. Past the first trimester. I am so ready for this adventure and I am so afraid of it being taken away again.