I won't be on tomorrow, so I am saying Merry Christmas today! To the left you will see a picture of our beautiful Christmas tree. The was before our cats pulled off all of the lights, garland and ornaments, so it looks nice.
Today I am at work, probably until about 3 or 4. But starting at 1 we have a party and do our secret santa presents. After work I need to run to the book store to buy a travel book for my cousin because I got her in the family secret santa. I ordered one last week but it never came, of course. So I will be running around like a fool and waiting on 3 hour long lines to buy a stupid book. Oh well.
So, anyway, today is 8dp3dt. Otherwise known as 11dpo. I have decided that I AM going to test at home before the beta on Monday. I need to prepare myself for the outcome. I could technically test now, but I won't. I don't want to ruin the next two days with our families if it comes out negative. In this case- ignorance is bliss.
I don't have any symptoms whatsoever. Not even from the progesterone suppositories and estrogen patches. No sore boobs. No exhaustion. No nausea. Nothing.
My DH doesn't understand that when I tell him I don't think it worked, it's not me being negative. It's my defense mechanism. It's my way of keeping in reality and preparing myself for what is most likely going to be.
It makes me sad because my doc seemed so convinced that this was going to work. If it didn't, I feel like something is really, really wrong with me. Of course, I have the frozen embies, still, but how are those going to work if a fresh cycle didn't work under perfect conditions.
I am praying with all of my might that this worked.
